Something's bothering me since last night. A friend asked about me and my ex,I told her, "good news we broke up already." I even bragged I'm so happy now that he's not in my life anymore. She said it seems that I don't ever love that guy because I said it's the best thing that I ever did this year. It feels like a nahash tzefa had biten me. I can't help but think about it. He kept on telling me before that I have to grow and I'm growing but without him in my life. I'm growing and I'm so happy and feel so blessed. It's like a metamorphosis experience. I thought it was the end but praise God it's just a beautiful beginning of a wonderful life. I promised myself I have to control my emotions. I'm the master of my emotions and I'm a product of my thoughts, so I don't want to analyze about what happened anymore. Sometimes the sweetest memories are the bitter ones that sting the eyes and gnaw the heart. I'll remember our unforgettable moments for sure, moments that I thought would never last but I have to make it sure it's just a fading memory not worth remembering. I just don't want to look back at the past, that's what I told my friend so I'll do it myself. I'm a woman of the present...
My friend told me if only she could turn back the time. She won't get married and have a baby this early. I can't help but pity her, I know being a full time house wife is hard with all the household chores and the baby to look after gosh, it's so tiring and it requires a lot of sacrifice. She said if she remember her happy and easy go lucky kind of life that she used to have before she can't help but regret. I told her don't look back of the yesterdays anymore. Other women are dreaming and dying to be in her place. To have someone to love endlessly, someone who will walk you down the aisles and be with you till the end of time. To have a wonderful husband who is a good provider and to have a very cute baby boy.
Life is like a river so go with the flow...
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